Spring feeling ~ desk stuff & selca!

Hello there ^-^ SPRING IS ALMOST HERE! I love it ~  It's warm and nice. Everything starts to look pretty during spring!
So, last week I went to a chinese store to buy some stuff to decorate my desk! And I found lot's of cute things including a super cute chinese boy who was looking at me and my mom the whole time XDD today I went there again and he greeted us! How nice xD
Here's a pic of my desk (sorry for the phone charging LOL):

You see the hello kitty thing on my nintendo DS? Sungtae unnie gave it to me! ^^

And today I dyed my hair again ~ My hair had already big roots and I wanted it to be lighter! I took some selcas but you can't see the color as it really is T^T  it looks brown and in reality it's not THAT brown! It's more... gold/orange like... (I can't really explain it LOL) But here it is:

My not so pretty self... XD

Hope you guys enjoy the warm weather! <3  bye bye!

There are some things that makes me feel really sad and angry. I went through a life full of discrimination and like I said before I was victim of bullying when I was younger... One thing that I just can't stand is discrimination, believe me! And yesterday I cried hard not because of me but because of someone that I don't even know. I saw a guy on my school alone so many times... And he's not the only one. You know why these people are alone? Because they are diferent. Because they are not what the society sees as "perfect and normal people". And that makes me sad. That makes me feel empty inside. That makes me remember the days when I just wanted a friend... That days I used to stay alone in my corner waiting for the bell to ring so I could enter class and then no one would bully me and everything would be alright but then the bell would ring again and I would be disturbed by those kinds or just stay alone watching all the other kids of my age having fun with their group of friends while I was completly alone. I wondered so many times "why me? what did I do wrong? Why can't I have a friend?" and believe me... I still do. But my answer is almost complete: I was diferent. I am not like the other people of my age. I never was.
But I was talking about the fact that I cried yesterday and why? Because I know the pain these people are feeling. I know how it feels to feel that we don't fit the society... I hate it! I hate society! I hate the fact that people want to be all the same! Same clothes, same hair, same tastes... EVERYTHING! If you are diferent you will be ignored and you will not be accepted. The fact is that now I can deal with it. I don't care if people don't like me as long as I have friends who like me the way I really am but it's still wrong and I can't stand this behaviour.
Today I had a moment of hapiness. Why? Simply because I saw the boy talking with some people happily. That made me smile and made my day. It really did.

Out with friends

Hello guys! Today was fun~ ^^ I went out with Sungtae, Nikki, Kitten and Andoro! I met Kitten for the first time and she is nice!
We walked around Lisbon and ate together! I bought a chinese magazine and it has Super Junior on it and also small pics of Kim Hyun Joong, Amber and Lee Min Ho!!

 

Sungtae unnie's magazine has CN Blue, Super Junior and Wonder Girls T___T  she gave me that page because i wanted that awesome pic of Heechul :3

Also bought strawberry mochi which is yummy. *o*
Then we went to starbucks!! OH I JUST LOVE IT!!!

That thing tastes like heaven!! XD

I wish there were more days like this one. Seriously! 

Bye~

20 facts about me

1- I'm portuguese and I hate it.
2- I LOVE ASIA! I listen to k-pop, j-pop & j-rock! I also love animes and I'm trying to learn how to draw manga! ^^
3- I wish I could be a pretty asian.
4- I love fashion.
5- My favourite color is pink.
6- I love hugs.
7- I love fan fics! Writing and reading them! I just love it!
8- I love asian boys and I want a asian boyfriend.
9- I'm fanatic for yaoi.
10- I've been already deep in love with someone and my heart was broken because of that.
11- I love portuguese food! Ok. I LOVE FOOD! But portuguese food is really yummy!
12- I'm addicted to coke!
13- My favourite boy band is SHINee
14- I have lot's of nailpolish! Almost every color!
15- I love Hello Kitty!
16- I was bullied in school years ago.
17- I'm very romantic and sentimental but people who are too slushy/cheesy get me on my nerves.
18- I love my mom and my dad. I would be nothing without them.
19- I'm clumsy! I'm always hurting myself and going against everything.
20- I cry easily and I hate that.

Cleaning ~

So... I did some cleaning to my room (finally! my room is always a mess!! XD). The thing I like the most when I clean my room is that I always find stuff that I don't even know I had it!! This time, i found some pretty make up stuff that I had for years!! But they look pretty and cute XD
I also realized that I have too much accessories like necklaces and bracelets! I don't even know where to put it all! I need to buy a box to keep my accessories organized...

Oh and I've been thinking of paiting my room again... This time PINK. But my parents say that my room looks so pretty the way it is now... It's half orange, half green and half white. I love it because it's so original! But pink is my favourite color... I think I will keep it the way it is for now...

One day I will post all my Hello Kitty stuff!! I'm proud of my collection! It's not big but it's my PRECIOUS collection! XD

bye ~ ^^

"You make me cry, just tell me why ~" ♥

I've been loving MBLAQ and being an A+ since the "Oh Yeah" days but now... I can't explain my obsession with these guys right now! I'm so into them! Their comeback is great! They improved a lot and they're showing us that they are more than just hot, handsome boys!! <3

 

They gotta win something with this comeback!! If i could i would  buy the album! It's amazing! ^^

random thoughts

 I feel like writing about my life even though it is nothing special. To be honest, my life is a total mess.
I hate going to school, not only because classes are boring but because I don’t feel myself there. I have no one who shares the same interests as me and no one understands me. They go all like “ehh… you like Chinese people?” all the time… I know that some of them DO care about me and I like them but it’s like… it’s still not enough. They may be nice to me but they judge me inside. They want me to be like them, to tell them everything about my life… I’m a very social person but I don’t talk much about my life and stuff because I don’t want people to start thinking wrong stuff about me… I can’t even explain this properly. I’m just another internet freak who has her online friends and cares a lot about them. They understand me, they are like me, they like the same things as I do! I feel good talking to my twitter friends or Nikki, Patty and Sungtae. It’s not like I’m anti-social or something, it’s just that I love being around with people whom I can be myself. Just that.

And, because I don’t talk that much with my schoolmates they see me as cold person who never talks and who doesn’t trust in anyone… I’m not like that. I’m funny and silly, I love to laugh and be happy! I’m kind and I love to help people when they need me…

Maybe because of the scars of my past (yes I was bullied when I was in 6^th grade) I don’t like to show my real self to everyone but that shouldn’t be a bad thing.

Plus, I don’t have that much confidence in myself. I have to admit that I’m getting better when it comes to self-esteem but I still have some problems with that. I never had a boyfriend and sometimes I feel like I need someone to love and to love me.

Another thing that I hate in my life is the fact that my parents control me too much. I can’t go out with my friends to where I want and be alone with them because of that. Well… But I think that it will change this year! C’mon I’m 17!!

Ok enough with my stupid life! And once again sorry for the terrible english X’D

bye ~ ^^