Small details of today

I want!

Lancôme's "La Roseraie"

Benefit's Boi~ing

a floral backpack 

another stupid rant

Once again in my life... Being hurt by supposed "friends", by people that made me think they liked me when they actually don't... Being fake as almost everyone in this damn world!
Putting you aside is not being your friend, is it? Trying to be the focus of all the attention is not being your friend either.
We are a "group" but it's not for us all. I'm part of your "group" just because I am. Not because you want me to be or because you like me but because you had to put me there.
I'ts not like I want everyone to give me attention non-stop (that would be stupid imo)! I just wanted a little bit of it! I just wanted to fit in... To, at least once in my life, fucking FIT IN. But it seems like I will never do. I never fit in any place... Even though I've never done anything wrong to my "friends" they keep making me feel apart. Even if I try to be helpful, no one cares... Maybe I'm just a little bitch and I never realized that lol because the way everyone treats me makes it look like I am...
And this was just a big rant lol I sound like a little attention seeker but actually, all I wanted was to feel that my friends actually do care about me...

new purchases: makeup

It hurts when you try all you can to please someone, to make that person know how much is loved by you and then you get nothing. Not even a single sign. You give up on trying and then you realize that everything starts falling down, slowly. It mean that you were the only one trying. It means that if things change, the other one won't feel as affected as you do. It means that it won't be easy to believe in the other one's words anymore and you won't be able to distinguish lies from true words.

Things

I've been busy with school these days and my head has been spinning around and around. I'm kinda lost on what to do with my life and the past few days have been quite complicated.

Anyways I'm glad that my inspiration is slowly getting back to me. I've been writing a few things which always helps me to distract from real life problems. 

I think Tuesday I'm going back to shopping because I'm still in need of new sneakers and some other stuff. Oh and by the way I've been in love with two things recently...

Perfume "Noa" from Cacharel. I just LOVE this scent! It's so delicate but at the same time delicious! :)

 

YSL rouge volupte in shade 15 extreme coral. I bought this one and I'm in love with it! Even being kinda of a strong color I wear it everyday because it's such a pretty, cute and fun color to wear! The package is beautiful, isn't it? :3

detail :)