new tumblr!!

I created a new tumblr and this one is more personal. I still have the kpop one but I'm going to be more active on this one. Follow me HERE!! :D

Busy days

I'm extra busy with school at the moment. Tests, tests, tests, project works... My life has been chaotic as far as school goes. When I get home I don't feel like doing anything except being on my computer for a while and sleep. Hopefully I'll have a well deserved rest in about 20 days, when holidays come...

But I must say that I'm very happy that winter is going away because spring is almost here! :D We've been having some nice and pretty sunny days here where I live... It makes me feel happier and more cheerful, even having a terrible week! 

happy list

I changed the blog again~ Pink pink pink *evil laugh* 

Like I said in my previous post, Nikki suggested me to do a happy list and I took the chance that I was extremely bored at class to start doing it. Right now I have 33 things but it's on-going which means I will add some more in the future. Here it is:

another stupid rant

Once again in my life... Being hurt by supposed "friends", by people that made me think they liked me when they actually don't... Being fake as almost everyone in this damn world!
Putting you aside is not being your friend, is it? Trying to be the focus of all the attention is not being your friend either.
We are a "group" but it's not for us all. I'm part of your "group" just because I am. Not because you want me to be or because you like me but because you had to put me there.
I'ts not like I want everyone to give me attention non-stop (that would be stupid imo)! I just wanted a little bit of it! I just wanted to fit in... To, at least once in my life, fucking FIT IN. But it seems like I will never do. I never fit in any place... Even though I've never done anything wrong to my "friends" they keep making me feel apart. Even if I try to be helpful, no one cares... Maybe I'm just a little bitch and I never realized that lol because the way everyone treats me makes it look like I am...
And this was just a big rant lol I sound like a little attention seeker but actually, all I wanted was to feel that my friends actually do care about me...

It hurts when you try all you can to please someone, to make that person know how much is loved by you and then you get nothing. Not even a single sign. You give up on trying and then you realize that everything starts falling down, slowly. It mean that you were the only one trying. It means that if things change, the other one won't feel as affected as you do. It means that it won't be easy to believe in the other one's words anymore and you won't be able to distinguish lies from true words.

Things

I've been busy with school these days and my head has been spinning around and around. I'm kinda lost on what to do with my life and the past few days have been quite complicated.

Anyways I'm glad that my inspiration is slowly getting back to me. I've been writing a few things which always helps me to distract from real life problems. 

I think Tuesday I'm going back to shopping because I'm still in need of new sneakers and some other stuff. Oh and by the way I've been in love with two things recently...

Perfume "Noa" from Cacharel. I just LOVE this scent! It's so delicate but at the same time delicious! :)

 

YSL rouge volupte in shade 15 extreme coral. I bought this one and I'm in love with it! Even being kinda of a strong color I wear it everyday because it's such a pretty, cute and fun color to wear! The package is beautiful, isn't it? :3

MILK - Kpop event!

Hey guys~ 

Yesterday me, Rute, Nikki, Nana, Pat and André went to the kpop event that was organized in Lisbon. To be honest the event was totally boring, the flashmob was a bit lame but we still had fun because we finally met! 

me and sis ^^ 

me, Rute and Pat <3 this pic is kinda funny :D FINALLY A PIC OF US 3!

me and baNANA :b she's soo pretty irl!

me and yeobo (Nikki)... honestly this pic is a fail because my eyes were closed and she was speaking LOOL but yay a pic with her! <3 

Overall this was a fun day! We ate noodles (but it got cold after a while because we had to eat outside) and did a lot of silly stuff (like trying to catch pigeons saying it was Eli!). I missed Pat SO MUCH! It was 3 years without seeing her irl ;_; but we met! yay!
Now I'm finally on holidays and I will take my time to relax a lot, rest my body and give my mind some peace... I need to get ready to take better grades this semester but for now... no more school talk until january 3rd! 

update & blablabla

The past days have been full of mixed feelings. I'm happy and then I'm sad again... I cry pretty much everyday. Life has been quite complicated for me but better days will come, I hope.

I don't have a lot more to update. We're changing our living room like... upside down! We're gonna paint the walls white and one will be red (<3). All the furniture and stuff changed places but I think it will turn out good! There's a lot of work waiting for us till the living room is ready.

Also, my school is almost over. I only have one more oral presentation left and then I'm done with everything. Next week will be the last before Christmas vacations! My first day of vacations will be pretty awesome because I'm gonna be with Rute and Nikki (and maybe Pat!). We're going to a k-pop event. :)

Bye bye ~ <3