another stupid rant

Once again in my life... Being hurt by supposed "friends", by people that made me think they liked me when they actually don't... Being fake as almost everyone in this damn world!
Putting you aside is not being your friend, is it? Trying to be the focus of all the attention is not being your friend either.
We are a "group" but it's not for us all. I'm part of your "group" just because I am. Not because you want me to be or because you like me but because you had to put me there.
I'ts not like I want everyone to give me attention non-stop (that would be stupid imo)! I just wanted a little bit of it! I just wanted to fit in... To, at least once in my life, fucking FIT IN. But it seems like I will never do. I never fit in any place... Even though I've never done anything wrong to my "friends" they keep making me feel apart. Even if I try to be helpful, no one cares... Maybe I'm just a little bitch and I never realized that lol because the way everyone treats me makes it look like I am...
And this was just a big rant lol I sound like a little attention seeker but actually, all I wanted was to feel that my friends actually do care about me...