Having to pretend that you are happy for someone when it actually really hurts you is terrible. I know things were never easy for you and I think I only made it worse without knowing... Now I realize that what I was feeling was much bigger than I thought even though I never wanted to accept that. Now I have to learn how to deal with the fact that things changed and our relationship changed forever... I don't wanna let go, even if my brain tells me to stop, my heart just aches for you. Why did I even put myself into this situation? Knowing that we would never be together? Stupid heart and it's stupid choices...
Unfortunately we cannot control our feelings. Our heart can trick us and make us suffer a lot, even if we tell it "Don't". But although it's inevitable we somehow learn to forget and the pain becomes smaller.
ReplyDeleteYou deserve to be very happy! It's hard but you're strong.
*tickles you until you laugh*~~~~~
saranghaeee sis and keep your thoughts away from the sad stuff.
<3