I feel like writing about my life even though it is nothing special. To be honest, my life is a total mess.
I hate going to school, not only because classes are boring but because I don’t feel myself there. I have no one who shares the same interests as me and no one understands me. They go all like “ehh… you like Chinese people?” all the time… I know that some of them DO care about me and I like them but it’s like… it’s still not enough. They may be nice to me but they judge me inside. They want me to be like them, to tell them everything about my life… I’m a very social person but I don’t talk much about my life and stuff because I don’t want people to start thinking wrong stuff about me… I can’t even explain this properly. I’m just another internet freak who has her online friends and cares a lot about them. They understand me, they are like me, they like the same things as I do! I feel good talking to my twitter friends or Nikki, Patty and Sungtae. It’s not like I’m anti-social or something, it’s just that I love being around with people whom I can be myself. Just that.
I hate going to school, not only because classes are boring but because I don’t feel myself there. I have no one who shares the same interests as me and no one understands me. They go all like “ehh… you like Chinese people?” all the time… I know that some of them DO care about me and I like them but it’s like… it’s still not enough. They may be nice to me but they judge me inside. They want me to be like them, to tell them everything about my life… I’m a very social person but I don’t talk much about my life and stuff because I don’t want people to start thinking wrong stuff about me… I can’t even explain this properly. I’m just another internet freak who has her online friends and cares a lot about them. They understand me, they are like me, they like the same things as I do! I feel good talking to my twitter friends or Nikki, Patty and Sungtae. It’s not like I’m anti-social or something, it’s just that I love being around with people whom I can be myself. Just that.
And, because I don’t talk that much with my schoolmates they see me as cold person who never talks and who doesn’t trust in anyone… I’m not like that. I’m funny and silly, I love to laugh and be happy! I’m kind and I love to help people when they need me…
Maybe because of the scars of my past (yes I was bullied when I was in 6th grade) I don’t like to show my real self to everyone but that shouldn’t be a bad thing.
Plus, I don’t have that much confidence in myself. I have to admit that I’m getting better when it comes to self-esteem but I still have some problems with that. I never had a boyfriend and sometimes I feel like I need someone to love and to love me.
Another thing that I hate in my life is the fact that my parents control me too much. I can’t go out with my friends to where I want and be alone with them because of that. Well… But I think that it will change this year! C’mon I’m 17!!
Ok enough with my stupid life! And once again sorry for the terrible english X’D
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are you me ?? lolol jk
ReplyDeleteawww dongsaeng how i understand you =(
you have to be strong !! i like to talk with you on twitter you're so funny and kind ^^ it was a pleasure to meet you hehe would love to meet you in real life and hug you and make you feel better everytime you're down :3
I felt like that thousands of times like you feel in school before going to study in lisbon. Even nowadays if the two of them don't show up I'm there just like "this sucks" and everyone thinks I'm mad.
ReplyDeleteI don't have your classmates luck. They can be with you everyday. That's the only thing I wanted that they have.
You're not cold! (You're hot MUAHAHA) You're such a warm-hearted person! You help your friends and I know I can always count on you! I trust you everything! You're sweet and funny! Well and lame XDD Which is funny LOL
About your parents one day they will give you your freedom!
I love you bestie :3
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